Then he got in the boat, his disciples with him. The next thing they knew, they were in a severe storm. Waves were crashing into the boat—and he was sound asleep! They roused him, pleading, “Master, save us! We’re going down!”
Jesus reprimanded them. “Why are you such
cowards, such faint-hearts?” Then he stood up and told the wind to be silent,
the sea to quiet down: “Silence!” The sea became smooth as glass (Matthew
8:23-26 MSG).
One day last week I hit a wall. I was
emotional, weeping and sobbing (not just crying). I was sad, frightened, scared
for others. I had received some surprising bad news from a friend, some
potential bad news from a family member, and was frustrated over a few personal
things going on. I hadn’t slept well for a few nights (or a week) and was
exhausted. I felt like I was to carry all of this on my own, being tossed in
the storm. I sat on the deck and felt the rise and fall of each wave, just
KNOWING that one of them would toss me over. Surely I was going to drown in the
depths of bad news swirling around me. I was in no condition to be on a boat
like this! Let me off.
I had forgotten Who was with me. Who was for
me. Who loved each of those involved in every circumstance I was fretting over,
and knowing that they each love Him, serve Him.
Yes, it was a lot going on, but my job was to
carry it in prayer, turning these things over to Him, again and again.
Releasing them. Letting Him deal with the details and just laying it all at His
feet. Letting Him calm the storm instead of removing me from the ship.
It wasn’t wrong of me to be crying, I was
mourning, which was worthy of some of these circumstances I carried (and it
motivated me to take a really good power walk around my neighborhood—wind whipping
at my tear stained cheeks), but I had no faith. In those moments I felt that I
would never stop sobbing. My heart hurt deeply, and I feared the future. How
could I carry on? My prayers were gasps of air asking God to fix things by
removing them from my vision instead of focusing my line of sight on the One
who could calm the stormy seas. We could stay upon this boat, keep our journey
moving forward, and still arrive at our destination (heaven, right?). I had
lost sight of the goal and the tools to get us there.
All it took was a lot of prayer, a good dinner,
and a good night’s sleep to have a better perspective on the situation. Nothing
has changed. There’s been no new news to change any of the circumstances that
troubled me, but my focus has changed to keep my eyes locked on the eyes of the
One who can fix everything. Jesus.
My Prayer
Lord, I can be afraid of the things happening around me, be afraid for the things happening to those I love, be afraid for all the unknowns in my life. Help me to remember that they are already known to You.
You not only know the vessels we are sailing in, you know the bathymetric features of the sea. You know the depths
of the valleys we hike, and when we will hit the mountain tops. You know the
pain we will feel in our journeys, and when we will feel it. You have felt this
pain, and so much more.
Father, help me to lock eyes with You. Help me
to see the kindness and compassion You have for me and those I love, not
because I love them but because You love them even more. Let Your love propel
me to trust You in every situation You are walking with me, and with them.
I trust You with the storms of my life. Thank
You for not leaving me alone, and for teaching me to trust You through Your Word.
You are worthy of my praise.
In Your name I pray, Jesus. Amen.
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