Friday, August 31, 2018

Changing Signs of Changed Seasons

As I drove to Nashville yesterday morning, I couldn’t help but notice all the color draining from the trees. On the surface everything looks green and lush, but just under the surface I can feel the colors of fall trying to push through... a yellowing here, an orange tinge there, leaves trying their hardest to hold on for “true fall.” 
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Here in Alabama it’s been dry. Really dry. Our lawn feels and sounds crunchy under my feet. I drag a hose around to try to keep it green, but I know it will all be Bermuda brown too soon. That’s ok. But the leaves that fall in our yard already make me sad. I know that the kudzu privacy wall will dry and fade, the trees will lose their leaves. The maple sapling up front and the redbud out back will never be the same...they’ll turn and shed leaves and come back a foot taller with the Spring glory. Seasons do that, ya know. 
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They do that to us too, though I’ll never be a foot taller come Spring. 😉😄 There’s the feeling of change pressing from within. Knowing something is going to happen, but not knowing when. Just acting out of obedience and finding out later why you had to do that THEN. It’s come up a few times in the past week, this prompting of the Holy Spirit, then obeying without understanding why, and then, on the flip side seeing the reasons why. Getting it. 
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A few years ago I had more VA clients than I knew what to do with. It was my ministry, my job, and I loved getting to make art and get paid for it. I enjoyed contracting with a national card and gift company for a blog they owned, working with different writers and ministries in promoting their platforms, and helping their online presence perform well. Although my own creativity was set aside, I was filled with joy at helping others succeed. I loved being a part of the team. Each one. Then God started whispering “smaller” to me.
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I thought it was meant for my personal blog, my own words, but it seemed each year He asked me to let go of more. Then one year He just snatched my big account out of my hands, with no warnings or explanations. I was a little shellshocked. Or a lot. Yet between each thing He asked me to release to Him, or each thing He took away, we moved. KY to AR. AR to AL, where I had no high-speed internet, then to a different home in AL that better suited our needs. 
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Looking back now, I KNOW why He whispered, released and took away. If I had been unwilling to let go of things when He prompted, I would of left people in a big mess! Although I hate not being a part of those teams today, I know that their growth would of been hampered if I’d tried to stay with it, and the year without internet could of done damage to their ministries (and my sanity). God knew. He was not surprised and He was fully aware of what the future would hold, for me and for each of them. 
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Now I’m delighted to see them fully operate without me, and although I’m not as involved as I would of been, I’m able to support them in other ways. It’s all good! My life looks different, but right for me, in this season. And I’ll continue to delight in each season He brings me through... all glory to God! 

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