Oh Bonnie...I NEEDED this today!
Our last move, coming here to KY, was so precious! We felt like God had prepared a place for us in community, and it all happened so fast - effortless.
And now, TODAY, we're waiting to hear about another move...as a new opportunity has opened up with my husband's company. And while my prayer is all "only God's will" I can't help but wonder "could He bless us this way twice?". Because really, we love life here. He had work for us both, in ministry and a paycheck, and He's blessed the work of our hands, of our hearts, an although we can go to earn a paycheck - can we find community there that will have a spot for me, for us? And a few questions loom over the if's and how's of making friends and being on the road, and well...how will He make that happen??
So I needed this, to remind me that He desires us in fellowship with Him. And church, that sense of community, He loves too...but it's the frosting on the cake.
I can rest now, and stop worrying, and start trusting...knowing He knows all we don't know, like if he'll even get the job...
I've been really busy, and not busy enough. My heart has been breaking in unexpected places the past few months...friends passing away unexpectedly, illnesses attacking loved ones, me missing kids and grandkids, and not wanting to feel nostalgic for all the sadness around my heart right now. I feel tender and raw...vulnerable. I cry at the drop of a hat, even over silly things, like TALKING about not watching a movie that would make me cry...not even watching that movie. Just talking about it. Oh dear! I did want to touch base though as we approach Christmas...all the sadness is making me draw even nearer to Jesus, because He is my hope (and the hope of the world). I've enjoyed my time of Advent, singing in the choir at church, baking cookies for friends and neighbors. It helps me to shift gears emotionally and mentally when I can change it up a bit and do something new. And in God's goodness, He is allowing us to do something new for Christmas! I'll share the detai
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